Testimony of Daniel Goodrich
Born in Bakersfield, CA in 1979, Daniel was a happy young child who loved to spend time at Grandma’s house who often took him to church during the holidays. He had two loving parents that were separated when he was young. Daniel grew up with his mother, his older sister, and two younger brothers. He spent some weekends at his father’s home, where he also had a younger brother and sister.
Growing up in a house of 4 children, there was never a lot, but there was always enough. His mother juggled multiple jobs all while trying to be the best mother she could. She endured abusive relationships and financial hardships, but always put a roof over their heads and food in their bellies.
When Daniel was 11, his mother moved he and his siblings to Washington state. It was here that he learned to love the outdoors. Camping, fishing, swimming in the rivers, and hiking in the woods. Playing outside from the morning until dark. Long hikes to the secret fishing spot of his best friend Obadiah. Learning to ride dirt bikes, and how to have fun. He started learning the values of respect and responsibility Obie’s Dad and was attending church soon after where he learned of the Lord.
Daniel’s family moved around quite a bit so it was very hard for him to connect with anyone for too long, until they settled in a quaint logging town called Onalaska. As “the new kid”, and a freshman in high school, it was very difficult for him to fit in. He liked computers, video games, music, and sports. He wasn’t nerdy enough for the geeks and wasn’t sporty enough for the jocks. Having nowhere to fit in, he was kind of left riding the fence, trying to make friends, and appease his enemies. Having been picked on and made fun of for many years, this all came to a head in the middle of his sophomore year. A bully named Ryan had continually caused issues. One day as Daniel was walking down the hall, Ryan, for no other reason than to be cruel, walked up and knocked all Daniel’s books out of his hands and onto the ground…he had reached his breaking point. It was in that moment, that anger and rage became a real part of his self-perseverance and Daniel became Dan. He had a great work ethic, did well in school, started working by the age of 15, and still found time to go to baseball practice where even though he was good at the game, he still wasn’t accepted as himself.
It was at the age of 16 where things began to change. Dan had discovered his love for guitar. He practiced, played and became well enough that he was beginning to be accepted by his peers. A product of the ‘90s, Dan enjoyed playing the songs of his favorite grunge bands with his other classmates, yet still never felt as though he fit in…there was always something missing. As his mid-teens went on, Dan went to concerts and events with friends, and due to his responsible nature, his mother was always trusting of him to do the right thing. While he never actually got into trouble, he was drifting down a road that no one else could see. He started becoming distant, always wanting to be away from the family. Increasingly selfish, he started coveting his money because, well, he earned it. During this time, unfortunately church became last on the priority list.
Around the same time, he started keeping the company of a group of older classmen. 2 juniors, 2 seniors, and a couple peers. They were a misfit bunch from all backgrounds of different hardships and struggles, all looking to fit in by not fitting in. The older members of the group enjoyed partaking in what many unguided older teens do, drugs, sex, and alcohol. And while Dan knew these were not things that made him feel good to do, but they did. Outside of the physical aspect, it was the fact that for the first time, he was accepted by becoming part of the crowd. It led to many years of selfishness, greed, and envy. He wanted money and desired to make something of himself by showing his family how much he could make. He would show his family love through his buying of gifts and what he could do for them. This was due to the fact the he never learned to love who he was. He was ashamed of the things he did, using and hurting people that he claimed to care about including his own family. Because of his work ethic, his friends and family would ask for his financial help quite often. And though he always did what he could, Dan became increasingly resentful towards them wondering, “why is it that I go and work so hard but no one else does, but then they ask me for money.”
In his early twenties, Dan moved back to California to spend time with his father and go to secondary school. A natural with technology, Dan attended a technical college to study the field further. He saw dollar signs. Instead of hard labor, he could use his mind to work less but earn more. He became lazy and increasingly selfish. Though it was at this time he was able to reconnect with his brother and sister on his father’s side. He discovered that yet again, he still did not fit in. He began playing music in a band that for all intents and purposes was into the devil. While Dan’s heart was never fully into it, he found a new place for acceptance, the lead vocalist. With all eyes on him, he became increasingly arrogant and what used to be a thoughtful and caring kid, had become an egotistical monster, far from the Lord.
After graduating from school, Dan knew there was no hope of finding what he was missing in California. He returned home to Washington and continued working in order to further his own purposes all while giving to his family from a selfish standpoint, with resentment and ego. He had friends, but was never thoughtful, he had family, but was always distant. In his arrogance, he bought a motorcycle in order to have stature thus leading to a series of tickets and ultimately leading to a serious accident which landed him in the hospital with a broken leg.
Dan relocated to Portland after another failed band attempt and continued working and paying his bills like most responsible adults would. Although he had the façade of a growing and successful young man, he was empty inside. Working two jobs, it was mostly a selfish ambition of “look what I can offer you” that could never be satisfied…he was always trying to fill the void with whatever new thing would come along.
One night, Dan had a spiritual encounter that would later change everything he knew. As he was lying in bed, he felt a complete terror come over him. The feeling of being unable to physically move his body, but he could feel his soul being pulled up from it. In his fear, he knew only one name to call…so he did. “Help me Jesus, please help me,” he said, and instantly the feelings of terror were gone, and his soul rested in his body, peacefully as he drifted off to sleep.
The next morning, he sang a new song of praise to the Lord. For Dan knew that it was through His power and love that he had been saved from the abduction. Dan began to live life a little different that day and started paying more attention to the Scriptures…but Satan wasn’t finished with him yet.
Dan was still resentful that his family called on him for money, and how most conversations were always about what some other family member was, or wasn’t doing, so he decided to move away again. This time to Florida. He found an opportunity with his job that would pay for his relocation and took advantage of it, again, leaving what family and friends he had, behind.
The new beginning in Florida was a huge distraction from everything before. New experiences to be had, new environments to explore, and a job to keep him occupied, he started drifting again. He moved to the Keys where fishing and drinking are king, and in 2009 met the soon to be, and not yet known, love of his life. It started with a snide comment around the number of shirts he wore that all looked the same…but he was hooked like a tarpon on the flats with a fly rod.
Kristen was a fit, intelligent, happy, blonde-haired, green-eyed, hardworking single mom to a wonderful six-year-old named Dylan. They had the opportunity to work closely together one day, and Dan saw a woman who could finally keep up with his drive for success. To this point, Dan was a fixer. He saw things in women and often thought that, “if he could help them, and buy them things, they would love him.” Unfortunately, Dan still did not know how to love himself, but he did his best hoping that if he stuck it out, love would manifest itself in him. He would buy Kristen and Dylan nice things and take them on fun adventures in order to win their affection.
Dan and Kristen were married in 2011. They had plenty of good times, but there was always an underlying struggle. They both had egos and were very stubborn. Dan’s continued pursuit for more took the family to many locations, much as he did as a child himself. Eventually he bought his family a house and they settled in Brooksville, FL. Throughout the years, there was a continuing buildup of stress, anxiety, and unappreciation. While Dan would study the Word of God, he was not living as the Word instructed. Always needing more money, to buy something new, to keep up appearances. Dan’s ego and pride prevented him from empathy and understanding. These sins were the demise of his marriage and ultimately, after 7 years led to a divorce.
It was at this point in 2017 that Dan was broken. Desperate for a change, he started seeking the Lord in all corners. He started going to church regularly and was even baptized. But he still felt there was something yet unfulfilled in his heart. It took the forgiveness of Kristen for him to fully understand what it was. Once Dan realized that even she could forgive him in spite of all the heartache, he finally understood he could forgive himself, and in turn he was forgiven by the Lord. Dan finally put down his pride, his arrogance, his ego. He opened his heart, apologized, asked for forgiveness, and accepted he had been forgiven. Not only apologizing to Kristen and Dylan, but to many he had unintentionally hurt along the way.
Finally, at the age of 39, I, Daniel have been born-again. I have finally put down my pride and given my life over to Christ. In what can only be described as a miracle of God’s love, Kristen and I were reconciled, making our family whole again. I now devote myself to understanding the true teachings of the Lord Yeshua and I am working to help others see His truth. Through the study of Biblical texts and how they tie with current events, Kristen and I are working towards a life of mission work to help others where we can and uncover the truths behind satan’s global deceptions. I have found a new passion and voice in music, I find myself increasingly compassionate, more understanding and empathetic, a better leader to our family, more devoted to the Lord, and I finally understand what it means to be loved…unconditionally.
As I walk with the Lord, I carry this new creed: “If you want to get to Yahweh, you have to go through Yeshua. But if you want to do it YOUR way, Yeshua you will never find.” How Yoda of me. Oh, and that part about my “spiritual encounter” – keep an eye on our website, it will all be explained.
Thank you for reading my testimony. I pray that my journey might help someone who is struggling through the same things I have and that by knowing you are not alone, know that you are never alone. Please feel free to reach out if you’ve ever felt or are experiencing life the same way, to our email address: email@example.com. May the Lord shine his light upon you.